Silent Seasons

“Lord, I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do, what to think, how to act, or where to go. Why aren’t you speaking to me clearly and loudly? Why is everyone else hearing from you and you’ve shut me out?” This is how I’ve been feeling as I write this blog and during other times in my life, and I’m sure I’m not alone in these feelings. I could sit here and tell you to simply pray, seek God, and he’ll reveal himself. I’ll be the first to admit that those steps are not always easy. I sometimes become so frustrated that a simple prayer seems mundane, seeking God seems like an impossible journey with no promise land in sight. The truth of the matter is, I don’t always have the peace that surpasses all understanding, I don’t always have joy in my heart, I don’t always have mustard seed faith. It’s so hard to know that God is near when I can’t see, touch, or hear him. The reality is however, that you do not need to see, touch, or hear from God to know that he is near….

It’s during these silent seasons that makes me think that God is showing you his mighty power the most. Hear me out… Isaiah 60:1 says, “Arise, Jerusalem! Let your light shine for all to see. For the glory of the Lord rises to shine on you.” Notice in the verse it doesn’t say that the glory of the Lord is going to come on you one day. It doesn’t say when the economy gets better, when you graduate from college, or when you get that good break. No! It says God’s glory is already on you. The word “glory” translates to favor, blessing, or splendor. When you feel heavy with the burdens of life remember that you are heavy with God’s favor which is already on you. When you really understand that you are heavy with favor, then it’s easy to be heavy with expectation. The most effective way to recognize someone’s power is when you feel it. If a lion were to walk into your room right now, he wouldn’t have to maul you for you to understand his power; you simply feel how powerful that animal is when it walks into the room because you know what it’s capable of. It’s the same way during our silent seasons with God, sometimes God stays silent so you can simply feel his power working in your life.

But Lindsey, you may say, why am I not feeling God’s power? How can I access it? Let me tell you how I feel and access God’s power. Each morning for the past 31 years I’ve opened two gifts and they were my eyes. Do not take the small things for granted, because when you do is when you begin to underestimate God’s power. And when you start to underestimate God’s power you begin to become deaf to his directions. And when you become deaf to his directions you start to feel like God’s not present. And when you feel that God’s not present you begin to resent God. And when you begin to resent God you think you don’t need God. And when you think you don’t need God then you can’t access his power in your life--it all comes full circle. Open up your heart to God so that you may feel his power during those silent seasons when you’re called to simply be still and let God work.