While I'm Away...

I’ve had the worst case of writer’s block since my brother passed nearly one month ago. The Lord gave me the strength for the most difficult writing assignments that I could ever have—writing my brother’s obituaries. That was an emotionally draining process, but I made it through. I didn’t think it would be this soon before I could put pen to paper again, but here I am.

I’ve been grieving the loss of my brother, and I probably will do that for some time. In the meantime, I would like to stop gorging on the food that I’ve made my comfort, I would like to stop indulging in the many trivial things that distract me and waste my precious time, and most importantly, I would like to stop using my brother’s death as the reason to wallow in my pain. As difficult a journey this will be, I would like to fully embrace the strength God gives me so that I can accomplish the things He sent me to do while I’m on this earth.  

My reality changed and I now understand that time is truly of the essence. My brother lived an amazing life for the twenty-six years we were blessed to have his presence here and his life has been so much of an inspiration to me that I don’t want to waste his legacy or let God down. I want to use my brother’s life as my catalyst to fulfill my purpose and not an excuse to not accomplish anything. I want to infuse the world with the talents that God placed inside of me.

The only way I’ll be able to do any of that is by spending time with God, being a devoted wife and mother, and being a free-thinker who is not bound by the limitations of this world. Social media is one of those limitations. As expansive and great a tool social media can be, it can also be wildly distracting for me. Lately, I’ve found myself logging on more than I would like to admit and for no reason at all—I just do it to take my mind off of the pain that I feel—and it’s only been temporal. I do believe that God is my peace, my joy, and my strength and there is nothing this world can offer me that my Father hasn’t already given me. So I’m going to take this time to rest, rejuvenate, and be healed in Him. Sometimes life gives you wake up calls that you weren’t prepared for, and I think it’s wise not to waste them.

If you’re reading this and have ever lost a loved one, consider these wise words: “You never get over a loss, you just get God-given strength for the journey.”

Sometimes you have to do what’s best for you to get there.

Peace and Restoration Be unto you

-Meisha